4 Mar 2018

Lifestyle Changes I Want To Make In 2018


Ugh. Day two of feeling like I'm stuck inside a snow globe, not fun. Worst of all, I'm out of Options white hot chocolate and I've got a real craving for it. Now I'm kinda pissed off at myself for not buying it the other day because it wasn't on offer. Cheapskate.

Any who, as I'm stuck inside for the foreseeable, I thought I would whip up a short list of the lifestyle changes that I'm keen to make this year. Note that I haven't said that I will make them, just that I would like to. I mean, with a 6 month old baby to contend with, I can't even commit to a hot meal.

Wear more colour

I enjoy bright clothing and bold, colourful prints but I've never been able to pluck up the courage to wear them myself.

There's a couple of reasons for this. One being that I'm not 100% sure how to put together colourful outfits that won't make me look like a 90's childrens tv presenter and two, I'm very self conscious and if anyone's looking at me, I automatically assume that I've got something on my face or baby sick down my front.

Nevertheless, I'm determined that 2018 will be the year I wear whatever the hell I want. And that means embracing colour, colour makes me happy.

Drink more water

Before I started my maternity leave, I used to drink a lot of water. I would easily down a glass an hour at work, no probs.

Nowadays, unless I'm at the gym my body is lucky to see water in it's purest form. Instead, I''m forever desperately fuelling my body with caffeine, all the caffeine. Seriously, I've never drank so much coffee and as a result, my body has suffered. I frequently feel sluggish, my skin is the worst it's been since my teenage years and I'm forever getting pounding headaches.

I've started carrying around a water bottle in my changing bag to encourage me to drink more when I'm out and about, but I need to find ways to up my intake when I'm cooped up indoors.

Get organised

It's not a case of wanting to get organised, I NEED to get my shit together if I'm to ever nail the work/mum/social life balance that I so desperately want. I've already started with this by planning and preparing as much as I can in advance; meals, outfits, literally anything that will save any unnecessarily flapping around.

AND FINALLY

Be kinder to myself

I'm my harshest critic. Nothing I do is ever good enough for me and I'm forever beating myself up.

This has to stop. I need to accept that heck, I've gone through some mental life changes over the past year and that yes, they have have had a knock-on effect on my ability to 'adult' but I'm doing ok. More than ok actually.

You will get there girl.

17 Feb 2018

The Hardest Thing About Being a New Mum


So, let's delve straight into it. The thing I'm struggling with most now I'm a mum.

It's not the sleepless nights, the bouts of inconsolable crying or when my little bundle of joy decides to do an explosive poo in the middle of a shopping centre. It's not the petty arguing with the hubby about who has it harder, nor is it the worry that my baby isn't growing and developing at the rate that he should be.

Nope, it's none of the above. Those were the things I was expecting to find the hardest. The things that I had been mentally preparing myself for since pregnancy, bar the poonami (nothing can quite prepare you for that, you've just got to roll your sleeves up and get stuck in). 

No, the single most thing that I am struggling to contend with is the loss of me. The loss of my former self.

To put it simply, I'm not 100% sure who I am anymore. I mean, I know the fundamentals of 'me' but I've kinda forgotten the nitty gritty details of what make me, me. Whilst entering into motherhood I have fallen victim to identity theft. I'm no longer Kirsty Burrage: foodie, marketer, hobby-blogger and loose follower of fashion. I am now Albie's mum: caffeine dependant, chief nappy-changer, wheels on the bus enthusiast who would forget her head if it wasn't screwed on.

The lifestyle change for me was massive. I went from being a typical working millennial, looking out for number one, to caring for this tiny, helpless baby around the clock. As I blindly waded my way through the first few months of motherhood, I lost sight of everything else. With no routine, no structure and no set rules, I found adapting to my new role harder than I had ever anticipated.

Now that I'm a mum, my child's needs and wants come first. And that's how it should be. I brought him into his world and it's my duty to ensure that he grows up to be a happy, healthy, well-rounded human being.

For the most part, I love being a mum. It's an absolute privilege and something that I will never take for granted. It's rewarding, it gives me a real sense of purpose and an overwhelming feeling of pride. Honestly, a little old lady peeked into Albie's buggy the other day and said what a gorgeous, smiley son I have. Day made.

I love him more than I ever thought possible. He is my absolute world. But, and here's the issue. He's starting to become my life. He's literally taken over. I cannot mentally detach myself from him.

If I'm not tending to Albie, I'm thinking about him (when did he last feed? It looks like he's about to go into meltdown mode, is that him that I can smell?)  or talking/boring someone senseless about him. I'm well aware that not everyone cares to hear my baby drivel but it's bloody hard to talk about much else when you don't, or can't do much else, y'know.

Catch-bloody-22.

I try to engage in normal activities and things I used to enjoy but it is hard. Sometimes (more so nowadays) I'm successful. I'm now able to watch a programme from start to finish without my brain diverting to thoughts of my offspring . I even managed to bake brownies for Valentine's Day (someone get this girl a medal).

As you can see, I'm also attempting to blog again - something I haven't contemplated for months. Ok, so I'm still waffling on about the baby but I hope that by writing my feelings, I can start to uncover a bit of the old me, underneath all the baby sick and soiled nappies. I want to continue being a good mum but I also want to feel like me again.

Here's to self re-discovery!


20 Dec 2017

6 Of The Best Baby Buys For A First-Time Mum


I'M BAAACK..

Not sure if anyone actually noticed that I took a rather lengthy break away from my blog but nevertheless, hi. I am back posting. YAY.

It will come as no surprise that what you're about to read is baby-related. Y'see, ever since Albie landed into my life, he has consumed 90% of my time, thoughts and energy. If not more. Whenever he is within a 100m radius, he is all I can focus on.

Seriously guys, the baby-brain struggle is real. Last week I popped into Morrisons to pick up all the essentials (mince pies, brandy cream and diet coke - in case you were wondering). I packed and paid for my shopping at the self scan tills, walked home pleased as punch with my little haul to only have it dawn on me that I'd fucking left it there.

I was MORTIFIED. I was so embarrassed that I refused to go back and retrieve my abandoned items. Ed had to swing by and pick them up on his way home from work.

My brain at the mo is all baby baby baby. And I've given up trying to fight it, or apologise for it. For now, this is my life.

With that said I'm gonna do a round-up of some - okay 6 - super useful things I've bought as a first-time mum.

Here goes. In no particular order..

1. Baby grows with fold over mitts
These are bloody brilliant. No more faffing around with mitts to stop them scratching themselves accidentally at night. They're also good for keeping their little hands toasty at this time of year. Especially good if your sprog insists in sticking their hands out of the buggy at any given opportunity.

2. U-shaped nursing pillow
This is by far my most used purchase. It was a dream in pregnancy for supporting my bump or my back, depending on where it was wedged. When I was breastfeeding it helped me get Albie in the correct position, allowing me to keep my hands free. Nowadays it's Albie's cosy nest to nap in. I can also see it being useful to provide him with extra support when he learns to sit up unaided.

3. Sleeping bags 
Sticking your little one in a sleeping bag at bedtime is so much easier than having to wrap them up in blankets. They can't be pulled up over the babies head, they are so easy to put on and take off (I just managed to put Albie in his when he was already sparko) and they even have tog ratings, so you can ensure they aren't going to get too hot or cold.

Oh and they're bloody amazing for those middle of the night feeds and nappy changes as you can put them in it before settling them back down. Genius.

4. baby changing bag
I know a lot of mums just use a normal bag and stuff in a few nappies, wipes and be done with it but not me. I'm a disorganised person so having a bag that has been specifically designed to carry everything but the kitchen sink that I could possibly need whilst out and about with the baby has been a godsend. My Melobaby Melotote changing bag is a winner. It hangs perfectly on my pushchair, it has compartments for everything and its wipeable monochrome design has been complimented on numerous times by other mums.

It also comes with a matching nappy wallet and changing mat. V.useful.

5. Muslin cloths
You can never have too many, they are literally dotted about in every room in our house. They're perfect for protecting furniture/yourself/the baby from milky spit up and mopping up any dribble.

6. Dummies 
Whether you should allow your baby to have a dummy or not is a controversial topic, and one I don't wish to go into. I'm very much pro-dummy (I mean hey, whatever works to calm your screaming infant) so I felt like had to include them in my best-buys.

And there you have it, my 6 favourite baby purchases, so far.

Fellow parents, what have been your most useful baby buys? What should I be throwing my money at next?

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